Tag: acceptance
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A letter to myself after a breakup
In January of 2020, my ex of about 7 years ended our 2 year engagement. In order to cope with this new normal, I wrote a letter to myself. The primary way I communicate love is through written words. I wrote this letter to express the love and acceptance I have for myself and the…
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Gut feelings are God feelings
Have you ever felt that little kick in your stomach before you do something wrong (or right)? Most of us call this a gut feeling. I think it’s our most divine connection we have. It’s the way God communicates with us through a visceral feeling. My dad’s favorite saying was “trust your gut.” You see,…
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An Ode to my Inner Child
When I say inner child, I’m referring to myself in every stage of life. From the day I was born until now, I completely honor the person that I have been. Every belief that I created to protect myself worked for the time that I needed it. Every pattern of behavior and every habit I…
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Life is what happens when you’re busy making plans
I remember when I thought I would be married by 25 and have a few kids by 30. Little did I know I would be disabled at 24 and living at home after a broken engagement at 27. All I can do is laugh at the irony. It’s all experience. Am I heartbroken that it…
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hOMe is where the Heart is (literally)
Have you ever hit rock bottom? Are you at rock bottom right now? I know I am. My heart is broken. As I’m going through many trials, there has been one thing that remains constant. Yoga. After I woke up from brain surgery, I immediately asked to do downward dog. I did yoga before I…
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Don’t miss your Miracles
The word “miracle” has become taboo. I define miracle as a supernatural event that takes place in everyone’s lives. Something that seemed impossible becomes possible. It can be easy to overlook the miracles in life. That’s why I’m writing this. About 2 years ago, the first symptoms I noticed was the inability to swallow. I…
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Suicide: Let’s Talk * Trigger Warning*
*Disclaimer: This post is not meant to be a cry for help or pity. As a writer, my goal is to write only the truth. I can’t believe I’m doing this, but 2019 and I have some promises we need to keep. Truth: I struggle depression and (sometimes) suicidal thoughts. Yes, I’m an anti depressant…
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Thank you instead of I’m sorry
In general, our society apologizes too much. I think we apologize for the fear of pissing people off. This past week, I was in Colorado. My first time out of state since I was discharged from the hospital. I went to Colorado to see two of my close friends. Throughout my trip, I found myself…
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Person vs. Patient
From the day I was admitted into the hospital, until now, I have felt drastically unlike myself. I look in the mirror and see someone different than before. Everyone treats me different, looks at me like I don’t belong in this world. Luckily, I have wonderful family and friends that have a different perspective. Person …
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The whole story pt.2
When I heard the words ” you had a stroke” I began to melt to the ground in tears. I asked the doctor in desperation, “what do I do next?” She told me to go to the ER and see a neurologist. Those words scared the shiz out of me. I have never even broken…
Stephanie Darnell 